Waiting For A Break

Waiting and waiting, the time never comes

All I want to do is run far away

Where no one can find me

Yet here I sit, silently in pain

Wishing for tears would fall

I can only do one thing

Keep my head high

Keep on counting

Keep waiting for a break

Beyond Understanding

We all know those commercials that say things like friends don’t let friends drink and drive or friends don’t let friends do weed and so on and so forth. But what they fail to realize is that it’s not that simple. How do you tell your best friend that they need to change their habits without pissing them off? Don’t get me wrong, I’m nowhere near the little miss perfect who has never took a single sip of alcohol before in my life. I don’t find anything wrong with that. My problem is with the people who drink a ton then go drive around town. But Drinking is not my main reason for writing this little rant that is sure to piss off a few people in this world. It’s the drugs that really get me. All thru high school I knew people who did different drugs. Hell, half of my graduating class took at least one type of drug every day their senior year. If you were doing them then staying home, I couldn’t really complain. It’s when you take them then come to school where you have responsibilities. It’s getting high and drunk then leading the team or band onto the field that drives me insane. But I can handle being driven insane; life is not meant to be sane after all. It’s people who only get high because of the people that hang around them that make me want to scream bloody murder. Ok so you got into the wrong crowd or fell for someone in the wrong crowd. Big deal. Life goes on. But doing things just because the people you are around do it is beyond my understanding. I know it’s not my life; it’s theirs so I have no right to say anything about it, and so I won’t. I’ll be the good friend who listens when they talk about it and then hope they don’t get hurt doing it. What else can I do? You can’t tell your friend, “hey I love you but you have to stop doing drugs” they will laugh at you or it will cause a huge fight. I need someone to explain to me what the appeal of drugs is. Maybe if I understood that then I wouldn’t have to fight the urge to judge people who do drugs. The only exception in my eyes is cancer patients. If they take marijuana that is monitored by a responsible person then I see no harm. Why you ask? Simply because it helps them keep food down and makes them feel better from all the chemo they go thru. Call me a hypercritic or whatever you want. I know my point hasn’t been very clear but let me clearly state my view point on drugs. It’s your life, if you want to do it then knock yourself out. I won’t judge you, but I will not support you. So to everyone who is friends of someone who does things like that just sit back and watch. If it gets to extreme though, you do need to try and get them help.

Music Is Life

It’s a saying we have heard for as long as we can remember. Music is Life. No one really debates this statement but no one has defined why it is. Music doesn’t provide air, nutrients, or anything else necessary for survival. It does, however provide an emotional release. Think about it, when your mad, you play your hardest rock that you have on your computer, mp3, iPod, cell phone, or whatever you use. The same goes when we getting ready for a party, feeling hopelessly in love, or depressed. We always turn to music, most of the time before we turn to family. It has a power over you. You get lost in the rhythms of the bass, the melody of the lead guitar, the steady beat of the drums, and the lyrics that seem to be written just for you. Then, like magic, all your problems don’t seem so bad, or if you are already in a good mood, nothing can touch you from the high that you are on.
How is that life though? Just because music helps us through problems doesn’t mean that it’s life, right? But it does. Music will never betray you, leave you, hurt you, or disappoint you. It won’t judge, demand things, or blame you. It is life because it is a part of you. What kind of person would you be with out music? Would you be dead because it wasn’t in your car to keep you awake on a long drive? Would you still be crying in your bed? Music is Salvation, Music is Life.

Nightmares of Knifes

Tossing and turning in fearscreaming for no one to hear

cold sweat running down her brow

she can't escape now

Closer and closer they come

fog following some

wanting desperately to run

but they have already started the fun

Life of a River

Sparkling in the light of day

Moving with wind in May

So serene and calm

Who could ever cause it harm

Its journey must end

As it takes its final bend

It leaves the trees to be

As it enters the sea

Weather Whiplash

The sun is shining, flowers are getting ready to bloom, and people everywhere are celebrating the fact they don’t have to wear five layers every time they step outside. Now, I don’t mean to complain, but does this not seem odd to anyone else in Arkansas? It was only two weeks ago that some parts of the state were getting snow still. It was an abnormally bad winter after all. How is it possible that we change so quickly? Is it too much to ask to have weather that gradually gets warmer and not where one day you have to wear your biggest coat to flip flops and shorts the next? My fear is that it warmed up so fast that it will become that horrific heat that makes saunas feel like a cool autumn afternoon.
Not only that but what are college students supposed to do? The dorms are one temperature that for example you need a light coat and your fine, then outside your melting wearing the jacket, but in the class room you’re freezing to death. Is it really hard to keep all the buildings on the same page? Maybe not the same temperature but don’t have the heat on in one building and the air on in another.